Dayslayer Podcast

Marvin Castelle

Episode Summary

My guest today is Marvin Castelle, 1st degree Black Belt, renowned Jiu-Jitsu competitor, and owner of 10th Planet Jiu-Jitsu Torrance.

Episode Transcription

 Welcome  to  the  Dayslayer  Podcast,  where  you  and  I  level  up  our  lives  by  talking  to  BJJ  practitioners  from  all  walks  of  life.  My  name  is  Patrick  Donabedian,  a  10th  Planet  Jujitsu  Black  Belt,

and  a  white  belt  in  almost  everything  else.  To  work  on  that  today,  I'm  joined  by  Marvin  Castell,  a  fellow  10th  Planet  Jujitsu  Black  Belt,  renowned  Jujitsu  competitor,  and  owner  of  10th  Planet  Jujitsu  Torrance.

Before  we  get  rolling,  please  hit  the  subscribe  button.  button  wherever  you  listen  to  podcasts  so  marvin  if  someone's  a  season  blue  belt  and  they're  a  big  fan  of  your  game  your  flashing  style  the  way  just  every  your  technical  style  uh  you're  like  a  walking  human  highlight  real  basically  what  would  be  the  first  piece  of  advice  you'd  tell  them  what's  the  one  one  thing  they  need  to  know  at  that  stage  of  their  career?

Season  blue  belt,  what's  the  first  thing  you  think  that  person  should  know  if  they  want  to  emulate  your  game  in  any  way?  - Okay,  so  I  would  say  definitely  like,

you  know,  wherever  you  train,  let's  get  a  schedule  together,  right?  Let's  get  a  good  schedule  of  what  days  you  train,  right?  But  let's  also  get  a  schedule  together  of  what  days  you  recover.  right?

So  yoga,  cryo,  acupuncture,  you  know,  just  chilling  at  home,  stretching,  extra  sleep,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Just  get  your  training  scheduled  together,

and  your  recovery  scheduled  together.  And  man,  you're  going  to  do  wonders,  you're  going  to  do  wonders.  That's  probably  what  I  would  give  the  guy,  the  kind  of  advice  I'll  give  him.  So  it  sounds  like  what  you're  saying  is  a  lot  of  the  guys  you've  coached  and  trained.

with  did  not  spend  enough  time  on  recovery  No,  dude,  you  know,  I  definitely  feel  like  to  even  be  able  to  handle  Eddie's  classes  back  to  back  to  back  You  know  daily,

I  would  not  be  here  if  I  didn't  do  yoga  Those  days  where  I  was  when  I  didn't  train,  you  know,  I  would  not  be  here,  dude  I  would  not  be  here  if  I  didn't  go  to  acupuncture  when  I  was  hurt,

you  know,  I'm  saying  and  and  it  sucks  sometimes  you  got  to  go  feel  yourself  instead  of  eat,  you  know,  I'm  saying,  you  know,  when  you're  in  this  you  get  to  life  and  You  know,

I'm  down  for  that  would  rather  be  able  to  walk  around  and  Be  my  normal  self  rather  than  limp  around  and  I  can't  make  money,  you  know,  I'm  saying  I'm  I'm  depressed  it's  gonna  be  very  hard  to  do  you  to  you  if  you're  you  know,

you're  depressed  from  injury  and  infections  and  just,  you  know,  really  light  stuff.  That's  the  basic  stuff  that  you  did.  You  know  what  I'm  saying?  Yeah.  And  what's  the  like  reading  between  the  lines,

what  you're  saying  is  like  active  recovery,  because  a  lot  of  people  think  of  recovery  as  lying  on  the  couch  and  smoking  weed,  which  is,  which  is  fine,  but  that's  not  really  recovery.  That's  like,

that's  not  recovery.  That's  like,  that's,  chilling.  There's  a  separate  category  Dude,  that's  just  like  this  is  vibing.  That's  dude.

That's  like  at  home  personal  No  one  should  even  know  about  that,  right?  But  like  active  recovery  active  recovery.  I'm  talking  about  when  they  get  a  massage.  I  go  I'm  a  leg  locker.

I  bet  you  didn't  even  know  that  leg  lockers  should  get  foot  massages.  Yes,  they  should  100 %  a  hundred  percent.  My  feet  are  banged  up,  you  know,  from  every  submission,

you  know,  so  it's  like,  I  got  to  get  foot  massages.  My  feet  cramp  up  fast,  you  know.  - Yeah.  - A  lot  of  people,  dude,  dude,  we've  been  doing  this  a  long  time,  you  know.

And  I  just  feel  like  I  want,  no,  no,  not  to  go  through.  I  just  feel  like  more  students.  Yeah,  I  feel  like  more  people  should  just  focus  on  their  recovery  just  as  much  as  they  can.

they're  due  to  you  know  That's  the  key  That's  the  key  to  stay  on  the  mat  as  long  as  we  have  to  get  to  black  belt  all  it  takes  is  consistency  You  know,  but  if  you  don't  have  any  recovery  with  that  when  you  get  to  black  belt  You're  gonna  be  banged  up.

You're  gonna  be  a  white  belt  as  a  black  belt.  It's  just  so  easy  Yeah,  you're  gonna  be  easy  to  target,  you  know,  hmm,  okay  So  now  what  if  there's  someone  as  I'm  sure  sure  you,

you  have  plenty  of  these  at  your,  at  your  gym,  which  by  the  way,  10,  10  planet  Torrance.  We'll  talk  more  about  that  soon.  Let's  say  there's  a  student  their  first  three  months  who's  kind  of  discouraged  or  it's  not  quite  getting  the  game  of  jiu -jitsu.

They're  not  feeling  that  flow  that  they're  not  feeling  what  like  hero,  you  know,  like  Jocko  or  Joe  Rogan  talk  about,  about  just.  like  being  it  being  so  fun  like  a  chess  game  and  problem -solving  under  pressure  like  they're  just  they  just  feel  like  to  watch  smashed  yeah  so  like  what  what  is  what's  the  first  thing  you  tell  someone  that's  kind  of  in  that  position  they're  thinking  like  oh  man  maybe  this  isn't  for  me  hmm

maybe  this  isn't  for  me  you  know  I  would  just  tell  them  like  hey  the  first  part  of  of  jujitsu  right  now,  like  even  probably  before  they  start  feeling  like  that  is  gonna  be  resilience,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Things  are  not  gonna  go  your  way  in  life  that  you  want  and  things  are  definitely  not  gonna  go  your  way  as  jujitsu  that  you  want.  And  you  gotta  have  the  patience  and  the  resilience  to  kind  of  see  it  through.

You  know,  the  first  trial  and  tribulation  you  go  through  can't  be  the  only  one,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Again,  you've  gotten  beat  up  five  times.  times  We've  gotten  beat  up  five  hundred  times  You  know  I'm  saying  so  we  just  got  to  put  more  experience  out  there  You  know,

you  can't  judge  yourself  on  what  happens.  You  kind  of  have  to  be  like  alright  You  know,  I  got  smashed  today  But  I'll  be  back.  I'll  be  back  to  fight  another  day.  You  know,  you  it's  just  Not  one  outlook  on  it  like  okay.

I  got  smashed,  but  hey,  what  did  you  do?  Right.  Are  you  looking  at  anything?  anything  you  did,  right?  Anything  you  did  correct  was  the  coach  yelling  at  you  the  whole  time,  you  know,  was  he  correcting  you  the  whole  time,

you  know,  like  I  think  People  think  so  much  about  winning  or  losing  but  like  You  should  be  looking  at  what  you  did  Correct  during  that  session,

you  know,  and  that's  what  you  should  be  really  excited  about  I  used  to  get  murdered  in  class,  but  I  used  to  be  like  man,  I  did  pass  pass  that  guy's  guard  though.  Yeah,  you  know,  I  did  pass  that  guy's  guard.  I  did  hold  that  guy  down  though,

you  know,  I  was  a  white  room,  but  I  did  hold  him  down.  He  couldn't  get  me  off  of  him.  I  was  more  excited  about  what  I  did  do,  you  know,  rather  than  what  I  didn't.  I'm  a  white  belt  amongst  killers.  What  am  I  gonna  do  really?  Like,

you  know,  when  you  first  start  playing  chess,  you're  gonna  be  probably  not  good  because  you're  around  all  these  killer  chess  players.  And  they're  gonna  be  like,  oh  my  God.  God,  that  was  such  a  beginner  move.

And  you're  gonna  like,  All  right,  man,  let's  get  back  at  it.  You  know,  like,  you  know,  I  just  feel,  I  probably  just  would,  you  know,  talk  to  him,  you  know,  that's  the  time  where  I  feel  like  you  should  be  talking  to  your  students,

hey,  man,  you  know,  let's  let's  get  a  private  in,  let's  get  a  private  in,  you  know,  let's  work  on  some  of  the  movements  you're,  you  know,  you're  having  issues  with.  But,  you  know,  I  just  think  that's  the  time  where,

you  know,  obviously,  there's  no  pressure  on  there's  gonna  be  more.  just  like,  you  know  There's  love.  There's  like,  you  know,  there's  just  a  communication.  There's  philosophy.  There's  psychology  behind  it,  you  know  When  it  starts  to  get  to  that  level  Yeah,

like  how  you  point  what  I  basically  think  of  like  Tracking  micro  victories  how  you  said  about  getting  a  guard  like  yeah,  I  might  have  gotten  subbed,  but  I  got  a  guard  pass  I'm  gonna,

you  know,  I  might  have  lost  the  role  multiple  times,  but  like  I  got  one  that  one  guard  pass  and  Yeah  And  yeah,  we  tend,  we're  very  forgetful  with  positive  things  that  happen.  And  so  I  think  the  key  to  resilience  that  you  started  with  is  having  this  pause,

you  know,  everyone  can  say  like  be  positive,  have  a  positive  outlook,  but  like  really  looking  at  the  micro,  the  micro  wins  and  remembering  those.  And  like  it's  funny,

and  I'll  serve.  me  of  when  I'm  rolling  with  some  of  my  white  belts  and  like  after  the  class,  I  taught,  you  know,  I  taught  a  certain  set  of  techniques  and  we  get  to  the  position  where  it's  like,  this  is  the  position  of  the  move  of  the  day.

It's  like  I'm  in  my  open  guard  or  they're  in  my  Z  guard  and  it's  like  time  to  do  that  knee  cut  pass  and  they  won't,  and  I'm  like,  they  can  tell  I'm  kind  of  like  leaving  things  wide  open  and  I  I  can  tell  they  think  they're  falling  into  a  trap  and  I'm  just  like,

give  it,  and  I  want  them  to  do  the  move  of  the  day.  It's  like,  why  would  I,  I  mean,  sometimes  I'll  shut  down  the  move  of  the  day  'cause  like  I  want  to  do  something  else  and  they've  like,  I  know  that  they  learned  it.  But  sometimes  I'm  just  like,  no,  do  the  thing,

but  they're  scared  to  do  it.  They  don't  want  to  take  the  victory  'cause  they  think  they're  gonna  play  in  a  trap  or  they  think  it's  maybe  some  kind  of  disrespect.  I  don't  know,  but  like,  I  do  notice  there's  a  hesitancy  to  take  those  Ws.

Um,  oh  dude,  no,  well  said,  they  really,  they  do,  but  I  got  a  game  plan  for  that.  Right.  So  when  you  roll  with  the  white  belts,  my  game  plan  with  them  is  crowding.

If  I  crowd  them  at  110%,  like  the  moment  the  roll  starts,  I'm  with  everyone.  I'm  going  to  hit  you.  You  already  know  my  game.  I'm  going  to  go  see,  I'm  going  to  get  close  to  you  fast  where  you  want  to  back  up.

So  if  I  crowd  them  the  whole  time  right  and  then  once  they  do  get  on  the  awesome  that  the  on  the  attack  And  I  kind  of  back  off  They're  so  ready  to  do  this  move  that  they're  gonna  blast  it  through.

You  know,  they're  not  gonna  hold  back  But  if  I  kind  of  like  baby  them  into  go,  here's  the  knee  cut,  you  know,  they're  not  gonna  do  it  They're  all  he  gonna  buggy  choke  me.  You  know  what  I'm  saying  you  know,

so  like  if  you  just  just  like,  I  feel  like  the  intensity,  I  don't  hold  back  on  anybody,  even  if  it's  a  white  belt,  I  crowd  them  just  as  fast,  just  as  serious,

just  so  they  don't  feel  like  I'm  holding  back  because  I  hear  I  get  that  too.  Oh,  coach,  you're  holding  back  on  me.  I'm  like,  if  you  only  knew,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Right?

Like,  and  I'm  like,  sometimes  I'm  not  holding  back.  I'm  just  like  we're  saying  we're  looking  for  movement.  We're  looking  for  patterns  for  you  to  those  patterns  that  you  remember  that  we  talk,  you  know  You  got  to  be  able  to  notice  those  patterns.

That's  why  I  feel  like  you  just  do  is  kind  of  hard  because  one  not  not  many  people  are  good  at  seeing  patterns  Right,  but  then  on  the  other  hand  people  are  not  good  at  following  patterns  either.

So  it's  like  Damn,  you  know,  it  becomes  a  little  bit  more  trickier  but  I  definitely  think  the,  there's  just  the  intensity  with  the  students  in  the  role.

Like  I  still  smile,  I'm  still  having  a  good  time.  And  like,  they  already  think  I'm  like  some  guru  or  something  like  that.  So  that's,  that's  pretty  funny.  But  like,  I  think  the  intensity  makes  them  pull  the  trigger  faster.

I'd  like  to--  - Yeah,  that's  really  smart.  I'm  going  to  start,  I'm  going  to  start  being  more  intentional  with  that.  Cause  yeah,  you  got,  it's  like,  you  got  to  kind  of  let  them,  them  give  them  give  them  something  to  fight  against  like  it's  too  yeah  no  one  wants  something  for  free  no  one  wants  something  for  free  yeah  no  no  exactly  in  the  key  detail  just  head  position  you  know  the  same  thing  you  do  to  me  all  the  time

is  get  that  drive  get  the  head  under  my  chin  and  you  crush  me  one  minute  and  I  got  an  attitude  now  I'm  like  all  this  guy  yeah  he  cut  me  and  he's  like  yeah  just  for  for  anyone  listening  that  just  like  a  little  piece  of  gold  right  there  a  huge  part  of  guard  passing  pressure  passing  is  Your  ability  to  get  bottom  head  position  and  drive  it  underneath  their  chin  because  you're  not  you're  not  gonna  get  under  hooks  all

the  time  You're  not  gonna  get  no  crossfaces  all  the  time  But  that  that  bottom  head  position  driving  that  head  low  like  tripoding  your  body  or  big  flat  But  like  that's  such  a  nice  colonel  kernel  right  there  that  if  you're  you're  having  trouble  guard  passing  like  think  about  that  a  little  bit  think  about  that  how  many  times  that  we  got  through  just  because  I  crushed  this  guy  I  took  his  soul  away  with  his  head  position

and  it  wasn't  even  like  a  crazy  guard  pass  it  was  just  like  some  type  of  tripod  knee  slice  and  he  just  wasn't  acting  you  know  at  the  time  right  yeah  but  yeah  man  you  know  so  so  you,

you  mentioned  pattern  recognition,  and  I  think  that's  one  of  the  most  fun  parts  of  jujitsu.  Once  you  get  through  that  initial,  like  beginner's  hell,  and  you  start  to  see  patterns,

you  can  start  to  movement,  and  then  you  can  start  to  like,  make  variable  decision.  That's  when  it's  so  fun.  And  that's  when  it  like  you  really  just  everything  unlocked.  And  so  I  guess  what  I'm  wondering  now  is  when  what  stage  of  your  jiu -jitsu  career  did  you  feel  like  you  kind  of  broke  through  to  that  level  of  like  kind  of  feeling,

not  like  being  a  full  Jedi,  but  like  a  little  bit  like  a  Jedi,  and  you  could  kind  of  like  see  what  people  were  doing.  Was  that  breakthrough  as  a  white  belt?  Was  it  the  blue  belt?  Was  it  later?  And  then  like  when,

yeah,  and  like  how,  how  do  you  feel  like...  like,  yeah,  what  would  you  tell  someone  to  like,  kind  of  make  that,  try  to  make  that  happen?  So  sooner,  that's  a  tough  one.

That's  a  really  good  question.  Um,  I  would  definitely  probably  say,  let's  say,  okay,  so  I  knew  my  pat,  I  knew  my  routes  as  a  blue  belt.  I  knew  what  I  was  good  at,

right?  And  I  knew  how  to  submit  people.  Like  I  knew  how  to  submit  people.  Let's  say  the  route  was  to  submit  I  know  how  to  do  that  as  a  purple  belt.  I  learned  how  to  force  people  into  my  game  to  submit  them.

Right.  So  I  guess  learning,  learning  how  to  drive  early  and  then  eventually  as  a  purple  actually  getting  my  license  and  driving,  you  know,

that's  kind  of  the  way  I  look  at  it,  right?  And  then  as  a  brown,  I  would  say.  I  started  to  feel  like  I  could  tell  what  you're  going  to  do  next  as  a  brown  belt.  I  used  to  be  like,

okay,  my  foresight  is  now  high  enough  where  I  know  you  look  up  to  pass  to  the  left.  Okay.  As  soon  as  we  start  moving,  if  you  start  passing  to  your  left,

okay,  this  guy  is  a  left  side  passer.  I  have  to  stay  aware  of  this  or  he's  going  to  pass.  You  know  what  I'm  saying?  Or  this  guy's  a  right  side  passer,  right?  So,  but  then  as  a  black  belt.  now  I  feel  like  yes  my  foresight  is  high  but  now  I'm  on  to  the  game  of  I'm  trying  to  move  as  little  as  possible  to  the  most  devastating  positions  like  and  this  made  me  more  enthused  about  this  from  Sambo  because  Sambo's  then

it  wasn't  wazas  like  15  seconds,  12  seconds,  so  it  needs  to  be  Nebar,  boom.  Kizushi,  Nebar.  Osoto  Gari,

unlock  immediately,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  So  like  that  kind  of  urgency  has  really  been  on  my  mind  as  I  want  students  to  be  able  to  take  down,

instead  of  take  down,  pass.  finish,  how  about  take  down  finish?  You  know,  a  lot  of  nowadays  people  are  just  take  down  finish,  you  know,  because  passing  the  guard  is  a  system.

It  is  a  struggle,  you  know,  no  gi  or  gi  and  it  can  wear  you  out  with  a  match.  And  even  in  rolling,  you  know,  I  see  more  of  my  guys  get  tired  from  just  passing  from  scratch.

You  know  what  I'm  saying?  And  Eddie  talks  about  this  all  the  time.  You  want  to  sweep.  and  pass  with  the  sweep,  right?  Instead  of  just  sit  and  pass  from  scratch.  But  yeah,  I  would  say  about  homeboat  level,

that's  when  I  started  to  really  notice  movements  and  understand  the  patterns.  - Okay.  One  thing  that's  most  striking  about  you,  that  I've  always  noticed,

'cause  we've  been,  you  and  I  have  been  training  together  for  over,  I'd  say  close  to  10  years  now.  - Yeah.  and  you  you  you  had  a  big  you  had  a  big  influence  on  my  game  for  a  couple  reasons  one  is  that  I  have  a  lot  of  weight  on  you  I'm  like  I'm  probably  at  least  30  or  40  pounds  heavier  than  you  and  I  noticed  there  were  techniques  you  were  doing  that  would  still  work  on  me  and  I  even  and  then  even  I  knew  they

were  coming  they  would  still  work  and  that's  that  like  always  just  turns  on  my  That  just  that  always  just  triggers  me  like  okay.  I  gotta  learn  that  now  because  like  if  that  worked  on  me  And  I  have  size  and  I  know  it's  coming.

I  know  it's  like  that's  durable  for  the  long  term  against  anybody  and  so  And  like  and  yeah,  and  I'm  not  I'm  not  Like,  you  know,

I  I  got  my  looks  on  you  too.  Like  I  I'm  not  humble  bragging  right  now  Like  I  was  able  to  get  some  good  good  kills  on  you  too  but  nonetheless  you  were  like  a  mentor  because  you  you  were  doing  things  that  like  in  that  and  I  see  myself  in  jujitsu  as  more  of  a  jujitsu  philosopher  than  a  jujitsu  inventor  like  I  noticed  what  the  killers  like  you  are  doing  and  then  I  try  and  then  I  start  I  kind  of  start  to  copy  and

try  to  improve  them  try  to  innovate  them  but  I'm  not  inventing  much  like  I  think  you  and  me  Master  Eddie  Bravo  are  like  inventors  and  there  are  certain  guys  like  that.  So  getting  to  the  question  finally,

it  takes  a  lot  of  confidence  to  be  an  inventor  and  to  try  and  like  come  up  with  things  like  the  X  break  and  come  up  with,  start  doing  like  arm  drags  nonstop.

'Cause  like  arm  drag  is  an  example  of  technique  that  like  I  didn't  start  really  going  for  until  I  saw  you  just.  you  know,  I  knew  it  existed,  but  you  were  really  committing  to  it.  And  so  where  do  you  think  your  confidence  came  from?

Like  in  your  background,  you  think  back  to  growing  up  as  a  kid  influences  on  your  life,  the  struggles  you  might  have  gone  through.  You  said  you're  from  Michigan,  right?  Oh,  yeah.  Oh,  yeah.  I  mean,

yeah,  the  confidence  is  definitely  a  big  thing.  Well,  let's  say  I  I've  always  been  confident.  in  protecting  myself.  That's  something  I've  always  felt  like  that's  not  even  a  confidence  thing.

That's  like  a  survival  thing,  you  know,  like  I'm  going  to  survive.  My  mom  told  me,  you're  not  you're  not  about  to  just  give  up.  You're  going  to  survive,  you  know,  and  that's  what  I'm  going  to  teach  you.  You  know,  so  she  was  real  realistic  with  me  as  a  kid.

But  like  I  felt  like  in  school,  I  was  the  shyest  person  ever.  I  hated  any  type  of.  of  talking  in  front  of  the  class,  any  type  of  answering  questions,  even  if  I  had  the  right  answer,

even  if  I  had  the  wrong  answer.  And  I  felt  like  I  missed  out  on  a  lot  of  opportunities  from  just  being  a  shy  guy  and  people  telling  me  that  wasn't  manly,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Like  being  shy  isn't  a  manly  trait.  And  like,  I'm  like,  okay,  what  the  hell  are  manly  traits?  You  know  what  I'm  saying?  saying?  Do  I  need  to  start  fixing  cars  right  now  or  what?  you  know,

so  You  know,  I  kind  of  got  on  my  stride  to  be  more  manly  not  so  I  guess  because  I  was  raised  by  my  mom  my  mom  Raising,  you  know,  and  she's  not  man.

She's  not  lady.  Like  she's  actually  really  manly  really  tough  and  She  was  a  you  know,  FYI  my  mom  worked  for  GM.  She  was  a  She  was  a  a  driver,

uh,  manager.  So  she,  uh,  she  drove  four,  four  clips  all  day.  So  dude,  she  was  strong,  super  strong.  She  was  like,  she  was  like  six  foot.  My  mom  was  pretty  tall  too.  Um,

but  she  was  like  super  tough.  Uh,  but  like,  you  know,  getting  back  to  the  story,  I  would  say  like  on  that  trip  to  being  manly  when  I  got  to,

I  think  like  eighth  grade,  I  took  a  public.  public  speaking  class  and  I  think  Every  day  she  terrorized  me  and  the  class  would  just  Speech  after  speech.

I'm  talking  about  I've  seen  kids  throw  the  podium.  I  Got  into  a  fight.  I  got  in  a  fight  with  a  kid  and  threw  the  podium  at  him  Dude,  it  was  it  was  war  in  this  public  speaking  class  and  I  Think  I  get  like  a  a -minus  minus.

She  hated  me  though.  I  didn't  like  her  either  too  much.  I  ended  up  getting  an  A  minus.  She  was  a  really  rough  teacher.  But  um,  dude,  it  really  broke,  it  really  cracked  my  shell  open  rather  than  break  it  open  nice  and  smooth.

It  cracked  my  shell  open  to  the  point  where  I  did  get  the  skill  of  not  being  scared  to  talk  in  front  of  people  anymore.  And  I  think  me  going  through  all.

those  public  speaking  moments  that  were  just  terrible,  I  wouldn't  want  them  on  any,  I  don't  want  them  for  anybody.  But  if  you  do  want  to  grow,

I  do  want  you  to  do  them,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Because  man,  it  made  me,  oh,  and  it  showed  me  that  the  things  you  don't  want  to  do  are  some  of  the  most  important  things  you  could  do  in  your  life,

you  know.  So  I  definitely  would  say  mine.  public  speaking  class,  public  speaking  class  in  eighth  grade  and  seventh  grade  was  definitely  what  made  me  confident.  After  that,  I  got  an  MMA,

oh  dude,  I  got  an  MMA,  I  got  in  a  basketball,  I  got  in  football,  I  never  did  these  sports  'cause  I  was  so  nervous  about  me,  is  anybody  gonna  like  me?  Am  I  not  cool  enough?  Am  I  not  manly  enough?

All  that  died  after  that  public  speaking  class.  I  learned  how  to  speak  in  front  of  people,  or  to  women.  to  men,  to  everybody,  to  adults.  And  I  thought  that  was  like  a  power  for  me,

personally,  for  me  as  a  power,  you  know?  And,  you  know,  yeah.  And  I  think  that  definitely  gave  me  my  confidence.  Now,  in  Jiu -Jitsu,  like,  man,  I  could,  if  I  could  talk  to  this  guy  in  front  of  thousands  of  people,

I  could  smash  him  too,  you  know?  I  could  smash  him.  - Yeah,  that's  so  unexpected.  'Cause  I  think  what  everyone  would  guess  when  they  see  it.  a  an  accomplished  You  know  second  your  secondary  black  belt,

right?  No,  sir.  I'm  actually  still  a  first  Both  of  us  both  First -rate  black  belt  like  you  know  Renowned  competitor  you'd  think  oh  that  confidence  that  to  you  know  Confidence  both  in  life  and  in  speaking  just  comes  from  like  those  accomplishments,

but  no  you  actually  orge  from  growing  up  like,  you  know,  in  the  mean  streets  and  just  getting  in  the  street  fights.  But  no,  you  said  you  is  in  a  public  speaking  class.  And  so  that  was,

yeah,  it's  like,  it's  so  I  think  that's  one  of  those  little  factoids  about  you  that  a  lot  of  people  out  there.

may  I  be  natural,  dude?  - So  two  things  stood  out  there.  One  is  you  said  the  words  survive,  and  then  the  other  one  was  grow,

like  always  growing.  Always  be  like  seeking  growth  through  discomfort.  And  those  two  words  kind  of  seem  a  little  bit  antithetical,

because  survival  is  the  most  important  thing  in  life.  to  be  like  contract,  conserve,  and  just  kind  of  go  into  fight  or  flight  and  not,  and  not  take  risk  a  little  bit.

And  then  growth,  just  growth  through  discomfort  is  like  putting  yourself  out  there.  And  so  what  I  tell,  tell  me  if  this  is  right,  it  sounds  like  what  you're  saying  is  your  mom  gave  you  this  confidence  that  if  things  go  wrong,

you  will  survive.  But,  you  know,  that  that  gave  you  the  confidence  to  go  out  and  like  seek  growth  and  seek  discomfort  and  take  risks.  Is  that  what  you  say?

That's  that's  true.  It's  like  a  it's  like  a  backstop  you  kind  of  have.  Yeah,  my  mom,  I  think  my  mom  definitely  knew  she  had.  Well,  for  those  who  don't  know,  my  mom  died  from  cancer  in  2018  and  and  like  gum.

um  I  definitely  felt  like  she  knew  that  she  had  cancer  way  before  um  I  knew  100  so  I  guess  she  just  kind  of  Built  me  up  as  like  a  soldier.

You  know,  it's  funny.  I'm  watching  halo  right  now  and  I  feel  like  halo  the  whole  time  You  know,  like  my  mom  kind  of  just  built  me  up  because  she  knew  she  wasn't  going  to  be  a  part  of  my  life  The  whole  time,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  So,  like,  she  needed  me  to  be  able  to  protect  myself  and  take  care  of  myself  and  take  care  of  my  brothers  and  sisters.  They're  older  than  me,  but,  you  know,  I  call  them  just  as  much  as  they  call  me,

you  know?  And,  you  know,  and  I  definitely  feel  like  with  the  passing  of  my  mom,  my  sincerity  and  my,  and  my,

my  teamwork  skills  kind  of  pass  with  with  her,  you  know  what  I'm  saying,  in  a  way,  because  I  definitely  felt  like  I  lost  something  losing  her,  you  know  what  I'm  saying.  I'm  not  as,

I  feel  like  I'm  friendly,  I'm  nice,  but  I'm  not  as  forgiving  as  I  once  was,  you  know,  I'm  not  as,  you  know,  as  considerate  as  I  once  was.

I  felt  like  with  my  mom,  she  was  all  those  things  combined  into  one  Optimus  Prime.  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  But  now  I  feel  like  I'm  one  solo,  you  know,  you  know,  Autobot  and  I  got  my  own  attitude,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  And  it's  definitely  in  my  older  age  much  harder  to  change,  you  know,  but  that's  the  part  of  growth  is  like,  you  could  read,  you  could  study,

and  you  could  trial  and  error  and,  you  know,  definitely  fix  those  things  about  you  that  you  feel  you  need  to  fix.  you  know,  because  if  you  see  a  pattern  in  your  life  with  people,

you  need  to  be  able  to  fix  those  things,  man,  you  can't  be,  you  know,  frustrating  person  after  person  after  person,  you  know,  you  know,  and  that's  something  you  get  to  taught  me,  I  got  to  be  able  to  see  the  patterns,

not  just  in  jiu -jitsu,  but  in  with  in  my  own  life,  you  know  what  I'm  saying,  if  it's  good  or  bad,  you  know.  Yeah,  I  like  that  you  said  that.  So  the  main  Most  of  the  point  of  this  podcast  I'm  doing  is  to  Make  heat  is  to  basically  enhance  our  lives  off  the  mats  and  not  just  not  just  make  jiu -jitsu  escaped  from  life,

but  actually  an  enhancement  tool  for  life  and  And  a  lot  of  the  time  we  don't  we  ignore  that  part.  We  just  treat  you  this  way  like  kind  of  a  vacation  and  a  fun,

you  know,  a  fun  video  game.  And  so,  yeah,  when  you,  so  when  you  self  reflect  like  that,  which  is  like  really,  that's  like  a  level  of  kind  of  self  awareness  and  honesty  that  I  don't  hear  from  most  people  about.

Maybe  I'm  less,  less  forgiving  or  I'm  less  empathetic  than  I  used  to  be.  Is  this  something  you  feel  like  you're  on  a  journey  still?  rediscovering  from,  you  know,  your  mom's  kind  of  legacy  or  is  it,

or  do  you  feel  like  this  is  actually,  you're  kind  of  like  calibrated  how  you  should  be  right  now?  - I  definitely  feel  like,  I  don't  feel  like  my  growth  is  gonna  ever  stop  until  I'm  dead.

I  think  when  I'm  perfect,  I'll  probably  be  dead  in  the  ground  with  God,  when  I'm  perfect,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  And  so  I  just  feel  like,  like,  you  know,  me  and  my  life  and  my  trauma,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  I  got  to  be  able  to,  you  know,  understand  my  trauma,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Like,  you  know,  as  a  kid,  you  know,  I  was  born  in  LA  and  that  was  one  of  the,

you  know,  the  funnest  times  of  my  life.  I  was  going  on  vacations  with  my  cousins  to  Hawaii  to  Magic  Mountain.  I  mean,  I  was  living,  I  call  it  the  Sunny  D  life.  I  say  it  in  every  podcast.  I  was  living  the  Sunny  D  life.

in  California.  And  then  my  mom  moved  me  to  Michigan  and  now  I'm  living  the  gangsta  life.  It's  totally  different.  And  like,  I  think  just  being  around,  you  know,

like  just  other  kids  doing  all  different  types  of  things  and  like  me  having  to  be  able  to  make  my  choices,  you  know,  that  definitely,

you  know,  has  made  me  a  certain  type  of  person,  you  know?  And  I,  definitely  feel  like  those  choices  that  I  made  you  know  they  might  not  affect  me  or  excuse  me  they  might  not  have  affected  me  then  but  they  definitely  affect  me  now  and  the  way  I  see  people  and  the  way  I  perceive  things  you  know  because  sometimes  my  eyes  are  in  a  gangster  view  I  see  people  as  a  gangster  sometimes  people  say  words  I'm  like  that's  a

gangster  term  you  know  I'm  saying  like  are  you  sure  you're  talking  about  jujitsu  like  you  know  like  like,  and  it's,  you  know,  and  maybe  people  are  coming  from  the  same  thing  as  me,  you  know,

maybe  they're  coming  from  a  hood  like  me  and  they,  when  they  hear  certain  words,  you  know,  they  throw  a  red  flag  or,  you  know,  and  it  could  throw  the  relationship  off.  So  I  definitely  feel  like,

you  know,  I'm  always  going  to  be  on  a  path  of  growth.  Like  I  love  to  read  and  listen  to  audio  books  as  just  as  much  as  I  like  to  do.  you  know,

because  like  psychology  has  always  been  one  of  my  favorite  topics.  And  learning  how  I  can  understand  people  better  is  something  I  definitely  need  to  master,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  If  I  want  to  stay  in  this  line  of  business  or  just,  you  know,  trying  to  be  the  best  individual  I  could  be,  you  know,  but  sometimes,  you  know,  it's  hard  for  me,  like  as  a,

I  guess  as  a  business  owner,  like  I'm  learning.  I  can't  sell  friendship.  That's,  that's  impossible  for  me.  It's  impossible.  I  can't  sell  you  my  friendship.

Only  thing  I  could  sell  is  skill.  You  know,  and  that's,  that's  the  only  thing  I'm  usually  good  at  giving  out  is  skill.  Like,  I  think  I  could  sell  you  the  skill,  and  you  have  to  put  the  work  in,

and  that  skill  and  that  work  will  turn  into  a  bond  that  will  probably  not  be  broken  pretty  easily.  But  you  gotta  be  able  to  put  that  work  in  to  even  get  to  that  level.

Eddie  didn't  know  my  name  when  I  was  a  white  belt.  Eddie  didn't  know  my  name  for  the  first  two  years.  You  know,  why  he  knows  my  name  now?  'Cause  I  made  that  shit  fucking  happen.  I  made  sure  he  remembered  my  name  off  the  mat.

I  made  sure  he  remembered  my  name  off  the  mat.  I  made  sure  he  remembered  my  last  name,  you  know,  'cause  I'm  gonna  be  here.  I'm  gonna  be  in  your  face.  I'm  gonna  be  here  all  day.  You  know,  and  that's  just...  you  know,  this  is  what  we  kind  of  dedicated  our  life  to,

you  know,  and  I  never  looked  at  you  get  to  as  a  video  game,  as  a  getaway.  You  know,  I  looked  at  this  right  now,  you  know,  we're  in  that  video  game  right  now.  As  soon  as  I  get  off  work,  I'm  getting  on  that  video  games  right  now.

And  it's,  this  is  my  life.  This  is  what  I  love.  I  definitely  think  it's  harder  to  teach  people  who  love  it  already  than  teach  people  who  you're  trying  to  teach  people.

convince  to  love  it.  You  know  I'm  saying  you  said  it's  hard  It's  harder  to  teach  people  who  love  it  already  or  the  so  it's  no  I  said,  you  know,  it's  definitely  it  is  definitely  less  harder  to  teach  somebody  who  loves  you  jitsu  already  Then  somebody  who  you're  still  trying  to  convince  to  love  it,

you  know.  Oh,  yeah  Yeah,  you  know  because  they  they  don't  believe  the  power.  Yes.  Yes,  you  know,  it  still  takes  time  Yeah,  I  feel  like  there's  something  in  between  between  Giving  skill  providing  skill  and  providing  friendship  that  we  can  do.

It's  because  yeah  friendship  is  like  This  is  it's  a  gym.  It's  a  business  transaction  in  a  lot  of  ways  at  least  up  front  and  yeah,  so  we're  not  You  know,  we're  not  creating  a  cult  Like  that  a  lot  a  lot  of  times  happens  like  we're  not  saying  like  join  the  family  even  though  we  sometimes  use  that  language  but  also  just  just  giving  skill  is  a  little  bit,

just  that  feels  a  little  bit  sterile.  And  it  also  feels  a  little  bit  like  you're  only  as  good  as  your  success,  which  is  like  you  feel  unworthy.  And  there's  something  in  between.

And  the  thing  I've  been  thinking  about  lately,  and  this  is  from  hearing  this,  this,  like,  basically  online  philosopher  philosopher  professor  named  John  Fevecki.

He  talks  about  That  there's  a  difference  between  friendship  and  fellowship  And  you  know  friendship  is  something  you  have  with  people  you  spend,

you  know,  maybe  you  grew  up  with  or  or  you  just  It's  kind  of  you  know  comes  organically  and  then  there's  this  thing  That's  fellowship  that  I'm  still  figuring  out  what  the  difference  is  since  I  heard  him  say  it  But  that's  something  to  do  with  shared,

you  know,  a  shared  activity,  a  shared  framework,  that's  not  necessarily  all  based  on  nostalgia.  It's  like  this,

it's  this  understanding  where  maybe  we  don't  even  know  each  other's  name,  but  we're  involved  in  the  same  practice.  It's  kind  of  practice  based.  So,  you  know,  because  I  yeah  because  not  ever  you  know  I  try  to  remind  myself  not  everyone  not  every  student  is  gonna  come  okay  how  about  now  better  oh  kind  of  still  breaking  up  let's  see  did  you  move  because  it  was  breaking  up  Hello  Okay,

now  I  see  you  there  you  go.  Yeah,  do  you  hear  me?  Yeah,  I  hear  you.  Oh  wait  now  now.  I  don't  hear  you.

I  Can't  hear  you  now.  I  don't  know.  Yes.  All  right.  No,  no,  no,  you  know,  you're  right.  You're  right.  Um,  I  just  I  think  people  come  in  When  it  comes  to  Jitso,

I  think  people  definitely  come  in  for  community.  I  get  that  I  get  that  100 %  but  you  know,  sometimes  I  think  like  Well,

I  mean,  I  think  it's  just  like  trial  and  everyone's  different.  It's  like  trial  and  era  So  like  if  a  person's  really  trying  to  get  close  to  me  as  a  coach,  you  know,  I  would  tell  them  like,

you  know,  let's  just  focus  on  your  training,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Like,  you  know,  coach  is  going  to  always  be  here.  You  know,  if  you  need  something  to  talk  about,  of  course,  I'll  talk  with  you,  you  know.  But  like,  for  me,

from  my  experience,  I  feel  like  sometimes  the  cooler  I  get  with  students,  the  more,  the  more  they  feel  like  they  deserve,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  You  know,  so  like,

some  students  will  be  talking  about...  can  you  give  me  a  half  off  on  my  membership  you  know  I'm  saying  some  students  are  talking  about  hey  I  can't  pay  my  membership  right  now  hey  give  me  give  me  like  a  month  you  know  and  now  that  now  that  now  they're  playing  with  my  my  way  of  means  but  they  want  me  to  be  cool  about  it  you  know  what  I'm  saying  so  like  that's  cool  like  if  you  come  at  me  you  know  chill  I'm

willing  to  work  with  you  you  know  I'm  saying  but  if  you  come  at  me  like  like  and  this  is  why  I  feel  like  like  we're  not  on  the  same  level  'cause  I  am  your  coach,  I'm  not  your  bro,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  I'm  like,  I  gotta  still  make  my  money  at  the  end  of  the  day  because  I  still  have  to  pay  bills  of  mine  as  well,

you  know?  And  like  there's,  we  got  guys  who  are  just  riders,  they  just  ride  us,  they  just  get  it,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Like  they  come,  they  train,  they  shower,  they  help  clean  up,

you  know,  we  have  an  event,  they  show  up,  they  show  love,  you  know?  We're  not,  we're  graphless.  grappling  they're  technical  They're  doing  you  know,  they  don't  they  need  to  do  and  then  you  got  students  who  have  so  much  ego,

you  know,  like  They  think  they  deserve  a  belt.  They  think  they  deserve  this  like  okay  You  tapped,  you  know  one  guy  higher  level  than  you  but  he  tapped  you  five  times  you  want  to  talk  numbers  There's  a  number  right  there.

You  know  I'm  saying  caught  him  once  he  taught  you  five  times  That  doesn't  mean  you're  on  his  level  right  and  let's  go  back.  You  know,  let's  talk  if  you  want  to  talk  numbers  I'm  the  guy  who's  really  walking  watching  numbers  i  know  how  many  times  you  talk  this  guy  as  long  as  you've  been  here  you  know  what  i'm  saying  so  like  i  try  not  to  make  it  a  tap  thing  but  like  i  try  to  make  it  a  experience  thing  it's  an

experience  thing  so  if  you  got  two  years  on  your  white  belt  oh  man  you're  so  damn  close  stay  grinding  you're  on  the  tip  of  the  iceberg  keep  working  let's  not  worry  about  a  destination.

Let's  worry  about  growth  right  now.  You  want  it  so  bad.  You  think  you  deserve  it,  but  let's  worry  about  your  growth  right  now,  right?  Coach  is  gonna  trick  you  right  now.  Oh,  you're  so  close.  Oh,

you're  so  close.  And  then  once  you  don't  get  it,  your  butt  hurt.  Now  you're  mad  at  coach,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Like,  like,  and  that's  that's  that  could  be  an  issue,

you  know  what  I'm  saying?  I  think  you  should  worry  about.  Jiu -jitsu  is  for  you.  you.  It's  for  you  to  get  in  a  shape,  right?  It's  for  you  to  learn  how  to  protect  yourself  and  protect  your  family.  It's  for  you  to  come  here  and  gain  friends.

It's  for  you  to  come  here  and  gain  confidence.  You  know,  it's  not  about  everybody  else.  It's  about  you.  And  I  think  some  people  nowadays  in  this  generation  come  in  there  worried  about  everybody  else.

Everybody  else's  game.  Everybody  else's  positivity.  Every  else's  negativity,  it's  about  you.  You  got  to  show  up,  you  got  to  try,

you  know?  - Yeah,  it's  almost  like  you  got,  'cause  it's  interesting  to  think  about  because  focusing  on  yourself  is  kind  of  the  definition  of  having  an  ego,

but  at  the  same  time,  focusing  on  others  and  constantly  compare  yourself  to  others.  is  sort  of  what  is  the  fuel  that  feeds  that.  And  so  I  think  what  I'm  getting  from  what  you're  saying  is  like,

focus  on  your,  like  imagine  you  are  on  a  heroic  journey  and  you,  you  are  on  your  own  path  and  other  people's  paths  don't  matter,  like,  because  you're,

there's  only  one  of  you,  there's  only  one  person  who  has  your  lived  experience  and  your  genetics.  And  when  you  start  focusing  on  others,  focus  on  your  own  path.  other  people's  paths,  that's  when  you  start  becoming  negative  and  resentful  and  start  feeling  entitled  and  things  feel  unfair.

And  that's  when,  yeah,  you  start  maybe  crossing  boundaries  with  your  coach  or  with  your  teammates.  So  I  think  I  hear  what  you're  saying.  - Yeah,

one  thing  to  pivot  to,  a  little  bit  now.  One  thing  that  also  another  thing  that  stands  out  about  you  is  your  you're  you  have  a  you  have  a  talent  for  naming  things.

Things  that  just  kind  of  roll  off  the  tongue  like  you  came  up  with  a  dark  arts  brand.  And  and  you've  named,  you  know,  a  lot  of  techniques  over  the  years  and  the  10  that  are  in  the  10  planet  cannon.

And  And,  and  you  mentioned  reading  a  lot  growing  up.  And  I  think,  I  think  you  even  told  me  once  you  were  like  a  Harry  Potter  fan,  like  that's  what  dark  rock  based  on  like,  yeah.

Yeah.  So  did  you  tell  me  about  your,  tell  me  about  like  what  books  had  a  big  impression  on  you  growing  up  and,  and  like  kind  of  what,  what,  what  do  you  still,

what  do  you  geek  out  on  now?  If  you  do,  well,  yeah,  right.  now,  I  would  say  like,  let's  see,  I  think  it's  the,  ooh,

let's  see  what  books  that  are  right  now  that  really,  I  think  I  like.  Oh  man.  - That's  a  tough  question.  - Well,  I'm  kind  of  on  my  activist,  I'm  on  my,  I'm  kind  of  on  my  activist  mode.

I'm  on  my  foundational  black  American  activist  mode.  So  I've  been  reading  ISIS  papers.  by  a  doctor  France  France  cross  well -seeing.  So  that's  Definitely  deep  It's  not  a  good  read  for  everyone  fyi  guys  It  is  it  is  like  a  little  bit  more  directed  at  foundation  of  black  Americans,

but  it  definitely  is  a  good  read  for  history  Um  interesting.  I  I  definitely  think  I  think  it's  uh  That's  a  tough  one,

um  There  isn't  a  book,  I  think  it's  called  "The  Art  of  Money."  The  Art  of  Money,  I  just  factored  half  of  it.  It's  not,  it's  not  an  easy  read.

It's  a  pretty  philosophy -based  read.  I  really  have  to  sit  and  think  about  the  concepts  that  it  kind  of  spews  out  for  days.  It's  not  the  easiest  read.

But  it's  definitely,  it  is  a  book  that  makes  me  think.  That  all  books  make.  make  me  think.  Some  books  I  could  just  blaze  through,  you  know,  but  this  book  actually  makes  me  have  to  write  down  half  the  quotes  and  kind  of  really  work  out  the,

the  examples  he  gives  in  the  book  in  real  life.  And  I  like  that  he  kind  of  prepares  you,  prepare  yourself  for  bad  results.  So  it  kind  of  makes  me  a  little  bit  happier.

I  think  if  in  the  book,  he  didn't  say  propel  yourself  for,  you  know,  people  not  to  respond  the  way  you  want,  you  know,  that  kind  of  makes  me  a  little  bit  less  hard  on  myself,  I  guess.

But  if  you're  talking  about  books  as  a  kid,  obviously,  the  Harry  Potter  books,  they  were  okay,  I  kind  of  like  the  movie  way  better  than  the  books.  There  was  a  book  I  used  to  read  by  Darren  Sean  called  "Cirque  du  Freak".

It  was  a  book,  but  I  read  like  every  book  in  the  whole  damn  repertoire.  Like  it  was  like,  well...

Say  that  one  more  time  because  it  broke  up  a  little  bit,  at  least  on  my  end.  Which,  what's  the  book,  sirs?  Cirque  du  Freak.  Cirque  du  Freak.

Freak.  - Cirque  du  Freak,  yeah.  So  it's  a  pretty  intense  book.  It  was  fantasy,  but  the  guy  broke  it  down  on  a  neck,  I'll  just  talk  on  another  level  like,

and  it  was  basically  about,  I'll  give  you  just  a  gist.  It  was  about  a  kid  that  basically  was  hanging  with  his  friend,  you  know,  he  was  kind  of  getting  beat  up  at  school  a  little  bit  and  his  friend  used  to  always  kind  of  protect  him.

And  long  story  short,  they  ended  up  seeing  the  flyer  of  a  of  a  event  of  a  like  a  freak  show  coming  to  town  uh  adult  one  not  a  kid  so  they  end  up  getting  some  tickets  and  they  end  up  sneaking  in  there  and  they  seen  the  show  and  basically  there  was  a  very  very  pale  man  that  had  a  pet  spider  that  was  like  the  biggest  spider  there  ever  seen  and  he  controlled  it  with  like  a  flute  and  you  know  they  watched  the

whole  show  they  had  a  great  time  and  then  they  made  up  this  ridiculous  plan  to  steal  the  spider  right  and  be  able  to  control  it  with  the  flute  right  some  idea  you  know  long  story  short  they  steal  the  spider  they  try  to  control  it  the  spider  bites  his  friend  He's  about  to  die.

He  has  to  go  back  to  the  guy.  They  stole  it  from  and  Say  look,  I  need  you  to  save  my  friend.  My  friend's  about  to  die.  He  was  like,  oh  interesting  He  was  like  interesting  the  guy's  like  interesting.

So  he's  still  messed  up  and  then  now  you  need  my  help  He's  like,  I  got  you.  He's  like,  so  this  is  what's  gonna  happen.  I  am  a  vampire  I'm  gonna  make  you  into  a  half  vampire  and  you're  gonna  become  my  assistant  and  We're  gonna  fake  your  death.

I'm  gonna  save  your  friend  and  I'm  gonna  wipe  his  memory  and  you're  never  gonna  see  your  family  room,  that's  the  deal  So  this  six -year -old  kid  has  the  fakest  death  Save  his  friend  and  become  a  half  vampire  And  go  on  the  go  on  trips  on  it  with  a  freak  show  for  the  rest  of  his  life  Yeah,

dude  it  is  pretty  crazy.  Oh,  you  coming  up.  Okay,  there  you  go.  We're  back.  Yeah,  we're  back.  But  yeah,  I  thought  that's,

that's  a  fascinating  story.  Okay,  so  what,  so  how,  so  does  it  end?  Does  the  series  end  with  just  them  being?  Oh,  dude.  Oh,  no,  man,  it  goes,

it  goes  dark.  It  goes  deep  and  dark.  Did  you  got  it?  If  you  read  it,  it's  not.  dark.  Like  he  has  to  go  through  a  lot  of  trials  and  tribulations,  man,  to  be  like  a  half  vampire.

You  know,  he's  half  in,  half  out,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  He's  a  kid,  he  wants  to  be  around  his  family.  You  don't  got,  you  don't  got  no  business  being  around  adults,  let  alone  adult  vampires.  You  know,  he's  still,

you  gotta  remember,  there's  so  many  issues  he  had  to  go  through,  like  you're  a  human,  you're  half  human,  half  vampire,  right?  It's  like  you  know  he's  gonna  walk.  blood  soon  You  already  know  how  humans  are  gonna  get  when  it  comes  to  eating  or  drinking  other  humans.

That's  gonna  be  another  mind  Explosion,  you  know  in  his  head  so  that  it  was  just  so  much  things  he  was  going  through  and  remember  he  was  in  like  freak  show  So  he  had  to  be  a  freak,

you  know  So  he  had  to  you  know  do  he  had  to  help  people  with  their  shows  and  you  know  It  was  just  crazy  man.  It's  like  a  12 -part  series  but  it  was  definitely  one  of  the  best  books  I've  ever  read.

I  don't  think  I've  ever  read  a  book  that  seriously  before,  you  know,  because,  well,  I  guess  it's  ISIS  papers  that  I'm  reading  that  I'm  actually  reading  that  pretty  seriously,  but  it's  history,

man.  When  you  read  history,  it's  dark.  You  got  to  take  a  break  sometimes,  you  know,  but,  you  know,  with  the  fantasy,  it's  a  little  bit  more,  I  guess,  appealing,  definitely  a  little  bit  more  appealing.  you  know,

to  the  average  eye.  Yeah.  Yeah,  you  have  this,  you  have  this  willingness  and  this  fascination  to  go  into,  I  can't  say  anything  about  the  dark  arts,

and  you  like  these.  Yeah,  and,  and  I'm  like,  that's  it.  That's  an  admirable,  that's  a  compliment.  Um,  and  it  allows  you  to  be.

to  do  because  life  is  life  gets  dark.  And  I  feel  like  it  kind  of  it  kind  of  thickens  your  skin  that  gives  you  this  comfort  and  discomfort.  And  I  personally  don't  naturally  like  those  types  of  books.

But  I  kind  of  but  as  a  practice  as  like  a  character  practice,  I  do  kind  of  force  myself  to  like  watch  those  movies,  those  dark  movies.  movies  or  read  those  books.

Like,  I  like  more  the  happy  stories  and,  - Like  love  stories  and  shit?  - Yeah,  kinda,  yeah.  I  mean,  the  ones  that  aren't  super  cheesy.

Like  I  like  a  good,  like  Jane  Austen  novel  or,  you  know.  - Dang,  amen.  My  mom  will  love  you  then.  My  mom  loves  love  stories,  but  I  think  I  didn't  like  love  stories.

I  was  like,  "Dude,  this  is..."  so  not  true,  mom.  I  was  like,  this  is  not  true.  - That's  the  problem  with  a  lot.  Yeah,  the  love  stories  and  romantic  comedies  just  make,  they  sell  the  false  story  that  the  universe  is  conspiring  to  bring  two  people  together.

It's  not  true.  But,  you  know,  it's  all  part  of  this  human  experience  where  and  also  or  else  they  wouldn't  have  gotten  written  and  read  by,

you  know,  millions  of  people.  millions  exactly  billions  of  people  actually  yeah  so  um  yes  okay  because  you  also  in  real  life  you're  a  snake  owner  you  have  dogs  once  again  you  you  have  this  ability  to  to  be  close  to  and  play  with  dangerous  things  and  so  and  I'm  and  never  were  you  saying  talking  about  how  you  some  of  your  this  having  the  snake  especially  like  in  your  room  it  like  reminds  you  and  your  jiu -jitsu  game

to  like  fire  and  snap  and  like  have  that  orientation  tell  me  a  little  bit  about  that  how  that  started  and  like  how  do  you  really  what  when  was  the  moment  you  clicked  like  oh  that's  how  much  you  jiu -jitsu  gaming  to  be  I  mean  mean  So  my  first  love  is  animals  from  day  one  jiu -jitsu  definitely  wasn't  the  first  passion  I've  ever  had  Animals  still  definitely  is  my  first  passion.

So  I've  always  studied  animals  Since  I  was  a  kid.  I  had  pre -mantresses  rhino  bees  nip  beetles  and  Denipedes,

you  know,  and  uh,  I  I  definitely  feel  like,  you  know,  just  watching  those  animals  be  in  their  natural  environments,  do  their  natural  things,

you  know,  and,  you  know,  when  they  attack,  they  attack  with  a  naturality  just  that  I've  never  seen  before.  And  I  thought  it  was  always  amazing  just  to  watch  them  do  their  things  and  their  habitats.

And  well,  owning  a  snake,  I've  always  thought  snakes  were,  you  know,  thought  they  were  cool,  you  know,  but,  you  know,  in  the  Bible.  Bible  and  the  way  I  was  taught  snakes  are  bad  snakes  are  evil  But  also  from  where  I  was  taught  hell  black  people  are  bad  my  people  are  evil  from  the  shit  I  was  taught  to  you  know,

so  I  just  couldn't  take  books  and  I  guess  the  winners  who  wrote  these  books  I  couldn't  take  everything  they  said  for  granted  So  I  got  out  there  and  just  kind  of  like  witness  these  animals  for  myself  and  I  learned  that  not  all  animals  want  want  me  dead  now  Not  all  animals  are  going  to  be  here  to  kill  me,

you  know,  just  like  all  people  don't,  don't  hate  me.  All  people  are  not  races,  you  know,  all  people  don't  want  the  end  of  the  world  right  now.  You  know,  so  it's  just  kind  of  getting  out  there  and  experiencing  it  for  myself.

And  I  learned  to  love  snakes,  you  know,  I've  had  corn  snakes,  Mexican  black  king  snakes,  all  pythons,  just  one  boa  constrictor,  not  for  very  long.  I  was  just  like,  like  helping  my  friend  out.

But,  um...  it's  just  uh  you  know  it  is  it  isn't  the  best  site  if  you're  if  you're  you  know  a  little  bit  softer  person  you  know  not  really  into  I  guess  um  I  guess  into  reality  the  the  seer  the  realness  of  reality  you  know  what  I'm  saying  like  watching  a  snake  eat  a  mouse  to  me  is  baby  food.

But  to  someone  that's  not  used  to  that,  that  is  traumatizing.  This  could  be  traumatizing.  Oh  my  God,  this  rat  was  screaming  for  its  life  as  this  snake  killed  it  and  ate  it  for  dinner.

But  I  look  at  it  as  this  rat  was  bred  to  be  fed  to  the  snakes.  And  if  it  was  a  rat,  and  it  was  out  in  the,  you  know,  in  the  field,  this  rat  would  have  to  be  clever,

smarter,  faster,  cleaner,  and  understand  that  today  ain't  my  day  to  die.  And  I  got  to  get  out  of  here,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  And  like,  you  know,  it's  different,  you  know,  nowadays,  they  breed  rats  for  snakes.

So,  you  know,  but  if  you  could  easily  put  the  rat  in  there,  and  let's  see  if  he  can  survive,  you  know,  that's,  that's  for  me,  like,  I'm  more  realist  I've  had  rats  beat  the  crap  out  of  my  snake  before  and  hurt  him  really  bad  oh  yeah  I've  you  run  into  master  splinters  all  the  time  all  the  time  I've  had  I've  had  a  guy  he  had  a  there's  some  type  of  uh  falcon  he  had  a  falcon  and  he  wanted  to  you  know  his  falcon  I

guess  he  couldn't  I  guess  he  couldn't  keep  it  anymore  So  he's  going  to  feed  it  to  his  snake.  And  he  had  this  big  old,  like,  python  that  he  had  in  his  garage  and  I  was  like,  dude,  that  falcon  is  going  to  kill  that  snake.

Are  you  tripping?  You  see  the  talons  on  that  thing?  And  the  falcon  literally  grabbed  the  snake  by  the  head  quickly  and  crushed  his  head.  And  yeah,  it's  not,

it's  not  going  down  like  that.  Animals  are  super  tough,  you  know,  like  you  should  be  given  this  snake  a  bunny,  like  a  little  snake.  bunny,  right?  Or  like,  even  a  cat,

cat  could  do  not  much  damage,  cat  could  do  to  a  snake.  That's  one  don't  miss.  They  don't  fall.  They  don't  slip.  They  could  squirm  on  anything,  you  know  what  I'm  saying?  Very  hard  to  kill,  you  know,

so  like  a  cat  could  do  damage.  A  dog  would  be  easier  to  kill  than  a  cat  or,  or  like  a  Falcon  or  something.  But  I  just,  you  know,  I  think,  like,  it's,

it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  just  animals.  It's  just  that  you  know  animal  lifestyle  They  they  kill  things  and  they  eat  and  have  to  survive,  you  know,  that's  what  we're  all  trying  to  do  We're  just  not  necessarily  doing  it  for  that  extent,  you  know,

but  you  know  So  yeah,  because  you're  you're  really  deep  into  yes,  you're  you're  deep  into  this  that  just  being  around  animals  and  the  and  Intimately  acquainted  with  the  realities  of  the,

of  the  food  chain  and  the  brutal,  the  violence,  uh,  of  them,  you  know,  acquiring  their  food,  like  you  have  a  natural  tolerance  for  that.

Whereas  a  lot  of  people  don't,  when  you,  right,  do  you  think  it,  it  is  a,  it's  been  a  big,  it's  been,  uh,  it's  in  the  way  that  jujitsu  is  uncomfortable,

but  it's,  it's  good  for,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  it's,  for  the  soul  Do  you  feel  like  it's  good  for  your  soul  and  good  for?  It  would  even  if  it  makes  people  uncomfortable.  It's  like  it  is  good  to  have  that  You  know  some  smaller  version  of  it  have  some  kind  of  pet.

That's  like  that  or  have  have  Just  that  awareness  that  improved  your  life  a  lot.  I  definitely  think  I  Mean  right  now  I  don't  have  any  snakes  actually  sold  actually  sold  of  my  snakes  'cause  I  got  at  a  pet  store  really  wanted  them.

So  I  was  like,  oh,  very  cool.  You  know,  how  much  are  you  trying  to  spend,  you  know?  And  they  gave  me  a  good  price.  And  I  was  like,  oh  dang,  that's  way  more  than  I  spent  for  them.  So  I  ended  up  giving  my  snakes  away.  So  right  now  I  only  have  bulldogs.

But  I  mean,  hey,  bulldogs  are  another  beast  animal.  That's  just,  I  think  one  of  the  best  dogs  in  the  world,  you  know?  And  I  definitely  think  my  dogs.  make  me  ten  times  happier  Oh  my  god,

they  make  me  ten  times  happier  to  people.  I'm  sorry  to  say  guys  I  love  you  all  You  know  when  you've  got  a  dog  that  loves  you  100 %  no  matter  what  hey,  that's  that's  that's  what  I  love  to  you  know  You  know,

and  they  just  they're  just  they  do  them  they  do  that  they  do  their  own  thing  You  know  like  my  dogs  are  I  would  say  they're  tough  as  dogs  or  nothing  like  that  But  they  do  predict  the  house  They  protect  the  house.

They're  hilarious.  Bulldogs  are  the  top  10,  one  of  the  funniest  dogs  in  the  game.  And  they're  beautiful.  They're  beautiful.  You  know,  I  got  some  pretty,  you  know,  I  love  some  high  class  dogs.

So,  you  know,  I  definitely,  that  makes  me  happy  too.  They're  not  like  the  some,  you  know,  just  some,  I  guess  low  budget  dog,  you  know,  don't  get  me  wrong.  I  don't  mind  anybody  going  to  a  doctor.

a  dog  I  got  the  dogs  and  I  was  younger.  I  just  feel  like  it  depends  on  your  attitude  You  know,  I'm  more  of  a  breeder  I  want  to  make  sure  it's  a  puppy  and  I  get  it  from  a  breeder  and  I  know  it  works  clean  and  there's  no,

you  know  Backhanded  things  behind  it.  I'm  kind  of  scared  to  get  a  dog  from  a  pound  nowadays  You  know,  that's  like  going  to  get  a  kid  from  a  jail,  you  know,  I'm  saying  like  I'm  a  little  scared  about  that  His  dogs  are  dangerous  man  dogs  get  one  bite  You  know  how  many  you  know  how  many  people  are  traumatized  by  dog  bites.

Oh  my  god  You  know,  it's  crazy.  So  like  yeah  It's  a  lot  of  people  traumatized  dog  bites  so  many  and  I  just  think  a  puppy  even  if  it  bites  you  okay  You're  like,

I  love  puppies  cute,  but  like  I  got  a  big  dog  and  it  bit  somebody  somebody,  that's  not  a  good  look,  you  know.

And  even  in  my  dog  breeding,  I'm  super,  I'm  super  technical  and  I  look  up  to  dad,  the  grandpa,  the  uncle,  the  colors,  the  temperament,  okay?  Where  did  he  come  from?  Where  is  he  at  now?

Is  the  guy  hanging  paperwork?  Is  the  guy  mixing  breeds?  Is  this  a  pug?  Is  this  a  pity?  What  is  this?  Where  did  this  come  from?  You  know,  I'm  very  technical.  Just  like  my  jiu -jitsu,

you  know.  I'm  a  minority  and  everybody  who  says  something  that  doesn't  make  sense,  you  know?  So  it's  definitely,  it's  a  similar  game.  It's  definitely  a  similar  game  for  me,  jujitsu  and  like  dogs  and  animals,

but  the  dog  community  is  vicious  guys.  The  dog  breeding  community  is  vicious.  They  are  not  to  be  played  with.  They  are  super  serious  about  the  craft.  Some  people  take  this  very  serious.

serious,  30,  40  dogs.  Now  you  gotta  be  the  top  of  your  game  to  be  able  to  even  handle  that  many  animals.  Some  of  these  dogs  are  ranging  from  140  pounds,

200  pound  dog,  that  dog  could  kill  us.  We're  too  chill,  not  being  dominant  enough.  I  definitely  think  people  should  look  up  the  breeds.

breeds  before  they,  you  know,  purchase  a  dog.  I  don't  think  I've  hit  bulls  for  everyone.  I  don't  think  a  bulldogs  for  everyone,  you  know?  Yeah,  well,  I'm  definitely,  I'm  going  to  be  a  dog  owner  at  some  point.

Not  yet,  but  at  some  point  when  I  grew  up  with  dogs.  Yeah,  no,  I  grew  up  with  dogs,  so  I  love  them.  But  I  want  to  make,  I  want  to  have  a  yard.

Yeah,  you're  like  me  too  yeah  i  don't  just  want  to  have  a  little  yard  at  my  house  yeah  that's  yeah  i  think  that's  super  important  yeah  it's  nice  it's  nice  here  but  it's  like  it's  just  sharing  you  know  i'm  in  a  i'm  in  like  a  uh  building  and  so  it's  just  like  shared  space  uh  in  terms  of  like  the  where  the  dogs  can  can  go  to  the  bathroom  and  stuff  but  uh  exactly  but  yeah  i  definitely  when  i  when  i  cross  that

bridge  i'll  definitely  be  talking  to  you  and  get  some  advice  from  you  Oh,  yeah,  let  me  know  big  dog,  you  know,  I  got  probably  got  a  lot  of  connections  in  the  dog  game  for  sure  nice  and  well  you  you  are  a  Multi -faceted  person  and  there's  so  many  other  things  I  want  to  I  want  to  like  learn  about  from  your  background  and  from  your  philosophy  So  we'll  definitely  have  to  do  this  again.

But  yeah,  we're  gonna  we're  gonna  we're  gonna  wrap  up  just  a  second.  But  before  we  do,  want  to  know,  so  your  10  planet  Torrance,

awesome  gym,  I've,  I've  trained  there  multiple  times,  I've  had  multiple  students  go  there  and,  and  like  nothing,  but  the  most  pristine,

high  level  jiu -jitsu  being  taught  there,  a  lot  about  safety.  a  lot  about  a  lot  about  body  movement  and  fundamental  clean  fundamentals  no  g  fundamentals  um  that's  my  that's  my  that's  i  could  yeah  you  probably  do  a  better  job  talking  about  it  but  is  there  anything  that  or  besides  that  that  you  would  like  to  share  with  anyone  listening  right  now  to  check  you  out  yes  guys  so  we  have  our  rebrand  opening  as  10  planet

torrents  uh  may  31st  we'll  be  having  a  like  acai  free  acai  bowls  for  the  first  30  people.  We  also  be  having  a  free  donation  based  seminar  by  10  planet  black  belt  Danny  Gutierrez.

My  brother  one  of  the  top  guys  in  this  10  planet  association  guys  you  guys  better  watch  out  that  dude  is  a  beast.  And  then  we  have  a  white  boat  eight  man  tournament.  Yeah,  I  was  gonna  ask  you  Patrick  if  you  got  any  tough  white  boats  155  170.

Okay,  let's  jump  up.  in  this  tournament.  You  know,  everybody's  welcome.  It's  gonna  be  a  fun  event  We're  just  gonna  be  hanging  some  planet  Torrance  is  really  a  gem  for  people  who  just  want  to  train  We  do  train  hard  guys.

We  do  train  smart  We  do  train  safe  and  we  train  seven  days  a  week  guys  Everyone's  welcome  especially  all  my  10  planet  family.  There's  no  point  in  you  guys  being  really  weird  or  with  any  10  planet  You  could  come  by  any  10  planet  and  train,

you  know,  especially  Torrance  We  are  feel  like  a  lot  of  people  come  by  and  they  feel  like  there's  politics,  there's  no  politics,  you  have  good  hygiene,  you  got  a  good  vibe,  boom,  that's  the  politics  right  there,

you  know,  and  you're  you're  killing  it.  So,  you  know,  just  come  by  and  have  a  good  time.  Open  mat  is  free  Saturday,  one  p .m.  to  two  p .m.  guys.  So  definitely  if  you  want  to  hang  out  with  us,

you  definitely  can  come  by.  All  right,  we  heard  it  there.  March  31  is  the  re  grand  opening.  come  showered  come  with  your  deodorant  put  on  come  Come  with  a  good  attitude  sandals  and  they  do  have  private  showers  there  as  well.

So  There's  no  excuse.  So  yeah,  I'm  not  March  31st.  I'm  gonna  right  after  this.  I'm  gonna  check  my  calendar  make  sure  that's  open  I'm  gonna  I'm  gonna  make  sure  be  there.  I'll  try  to  bring  I'll  try  to  see  if  there's  any  white  clothes  I  want  to  I  want  to  mix  it  up.

Yeah,  man  Yeah,  bring  it  bring  a  man  just  to  have  have  fun  You  know,  they  don't  have  to  compete,  but  if  you  got  somebody  ready  to  rock,  you  know,  let's  throw  them  in  Torrance  template  towards  one  of  the  cleanest  gym  in  one  of  the  template  systems  guys.

We  bleach  we  clean  we  vacuum  every  day  We're  not  getting  infections  over  here.  Yeah  Uh,  and  you  have  a  shower.  It's  free  to  use  hot.  We  got  all  the  nice  soaps  that  keep  you  clean  as  well  guys  But  again,

you  know,  I  appreciate  you  Patrick  for  having  me  on  it  was  on  time.  Yeah,  man,  we'll  do  it  again.  Looking  forward  to  it.  Heck  yeah,  anytime.  All  right,  Marvin,  have  a  great  rest  of  your  day.

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